Love and Misunderstandings

I've decided to join the blogging world.  However, this isn't a blog about keeping up with my family, although I'm sure from time to time there will be posts about that.  I have a couple of reasons for wanting to start a blog.  Number One - I have been feeling incredibly misunderstood by friends and family lately.  Number Two - To help give myself and others a better understanding of what it's really like to be clinically depressed day in and day out.  The two are directly related (obviously).  I feel misunderstood because many of the people around me don't understand depression or what it's like to live with someone who has it.  And I don't know how to "teach them" about it.  Depression isn't easy to explain and from an outsider's point of view, it can just appear the depressed person is lazy and unmotivated.  Add on top of that the fact that I have ADHD and can't be medicated for it right now because of pregnancy and it's a whole new ball game.  I think the two are intimately related.  The lack of stimulation from not being medicated feeds into the lost and restless feelings of depression and leaves you feeling alone and with no direction and no clue where to turn next.  For those who are curious, I am on antidepressants and have been for several years.  Every so often, they stop working and I have to switch to something new or a different dosage of the same.  I've already had trouble with this during pregnancy and had my dosage doubled recently and I am hoping that nothing else will need to be done before the baby is born in regards to medication changes.   Other than my medication, my support system consists of God (lots of prayer), my husband (who doesn't always understand, but he tries and he listens), my doctors, and various friends and family members.  Outside of these precious few, it's hard to decide who I should share things with and who I shouldn't.  I know that there are people out there that think depression can be overcome with positive thinking.  Well, positive thinking helps, but I've never known any clinically depressed person that was able to "think" themselves out of depression.  How do I know who to talk to without being judged or feeling judged?  I guess the simple answer is, I don't know.  And I think that's ok.  If you want to judge me, go ahead.  But keep an open mind.  I want to be open minded and hear what others have to say as well.  I'm willing to take in constructive criticism and build a better version of me and I know I can't do this alone, although sometimes I just feel completely alone.  So, I'd love to hear what any of you have to say about any of these things and even share your own experiences with me on this journey.  I'm not in this alone and I don't have to be, Praise the Lord for that.  Thanks for reading.
Maureen